Yesterday I received my first negative comment on this site. Someone felt the need to tell me off for something I had written. I have not published the comment (as is my right to do so) and I have deleted the post it was about. I don’t know who the person was or if they even know me or anything about me. I have a vague feeling that this person does know me, doesn’t like me and felt the need to chastise me to make themselves feel better. I am someone who probably shouldn’t blog when it comes right down to it because I have far too tender a heart for criticism or negativity.
The sad thing about this is that I never intend to upset or drive anyone to comment negatively. I would rather crawl into a hole and never blog again than upset anyone whether I know them or not. I started Embrace Happy to help others find the joy in everyday life; to appreciate the little things in life and to realise that not every day is good but there is good in every day. I deleted over 400 posts from my other blog, Cafe Bebe, because they were filled with negativity and I don’t wish them to be a living legacy of my existence.
Since early February I have been living in a bit of a grey cloud. My freelance job evaporated and I have yet to be paid for the work I did for them. That much needed chunk of income will probably never come thanks to the company simply deciding to write off the back salaries owed to their employees and contractors. I am still struggling with feelings of anger, disappointment and frustration over this situation which makes me even more frustrated. I can’t seem to let it go. Probably because I haven’t had a resolution and I don’t feel that I can shut the door on it. Injustice really pisses me off!
I have been struggling with Embrace Happy as well. Not the idea or the sentiment but the site itself. I have been hacked mercilously and felt that I haven’t been able to write posts as I don’t want people to visit my site in its hacked state. I believe FINALLY these issues have been resolved but it has caused me to question blogging and what platforms I use and whether it’s just better to start all over again. In getting out of the writing habit, I have struggled to sit back down at the slowly churning laptop and force myself to write. Over the last two weeks of the Easter Holiday I have only sat down at my workspace twice. Writing and working has become something I can push into the corner, literally, until normal life resumes. I’m not sure if this is a bad thing.
And so, I turn to anyone reading this and ask you to tell me…Why do you visit Embrace Happy? What do you find the most helpful? I have some ideas and plans that are spinning around in my brain and are slowly making their way into my Focus Journal. Embrace Happy has now been running for just over a year. I somehow missed my Embrace Happy Birthday which fell at the end of March during our Easter Break. One year of Embrace Happy and finally yesterday, a FIRST. A negative comment. It’s got me reeling, thinking and wondering…tell me what you think…